a confession

I said it. I love you. An exhale of breath I’ve been holding after a long inhale. I can feel my ribs settling in place again, now that you know.

I love you. I love you so much.

We stood in the dark, A light shining overhead Illuminating you. I had cut you off- You were speaking passionately about something And I couldn’t hold it any longer That release after a long breath

I had taken you by surprise, You didn’t know I felt that way It felt natural, It felt right, Like I had said it before Which I had, Years ago,

When we were lovers And together. The years have gone by And we’ve changed, Matured. We used to fight all the time And I’d be ready for it.

The dust has settled now I feel a sense of calm when I talk to you. It’s only right that I’ve held on, I’ve kept wanting you.

My eyelids flutter open, I’m puzzled by the clarity Of my dream So sure of my thoughts And desires, The love for someone I talk to every day Since when I’m awake I don’t know if I want you Because you’re there and I need someone to love Or if I’ve never stopped loving you.

-Riley Quinn Farmery

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